So...three days. Two years and three days. For ten chapters. Whatever, despite better judgment, I'm going to post D10 now. I JUST wrote the last three pages of it and like, they haven't been looked at, not even a little bit. As my dialogue is ungainly and everything, I'm sorry, but it's late, I'm exhausted and I no longer have the energy to care and I know if I don't post it up now, it's going take months before I have the gall to post it up again, and by then I'll despise it even more.

But yeah, for those who care, this is not the end of this fic. I'm going to do rewrite of it. However, this is the last time this fic is going to be mentioned on my el-jay. Despite my apprehension and displeasure of ff.net, I did start posting my stuff there and I guess I'm going to do so as well. I might rant about the revisions more here, but you'll have to got the that cursed site to find the actual chapters.

( Delirium, chapter 10 )

Duude. I can't believe I finished. Yesh, at the expense of my psychology paper and English paper, but I don't care. I finally got this out of my head. It's been a major roadblock for me and I couldn't write D10 at all without first finishing this. This was/is/is supposed to be the B-day fic for jaded088 though it's obviously really, really late. Hahaha. Oh well. My goodness, I don't know if I ever had something that barely break 5 pages cause me so much grief.

This is also the prologue, or rather, almost like my thesis for my future multi-chapter, pre-MH anime fic.

Title: You're not here
Rating: PG
Genre: General
Word Count: 2500+

( Knowing that something was not quite right, these were the moments she felt the most self-conscious: even though she was sitting there almost perfectly still, she seemed to be, at the same time, moving with breakneck speed, hurdling towards a future that seemed to become ever-so beyond her reach and understanding. )

I don't get myself at all. Here I am at 5 o'clock, just finished writing this thing I started at 4AM. My eyes have been hurting since 10-ish and yet, somehow, I manged to write this. Probably because I did this with my eyes half closed. I've been feeling all sorts of inspiration lately and I really don't have much to show of it. I can't even begin to channel it. So frustrating. Which probably spawned this monster story that I actually finished. It makes no sense. I'm doing this half-asleep. My stomach hurts. It makes no sense, I just decided to screw with everything and write until I got to the end. And this is the end. Even if it is, dear Palette, I did you no Justice as I cannot do myself any. Screw with it. I shall post this up for my own reading pleasure when I can think and afterwords it shall probably be banished in it's inanity, it's triviality, it's dismal banality.

( blargh )

I am a stupid idiot. It was already 2:50AM in the morning, but I got struck by random burst of inspiration I decided to write a drabble. It just kept getting longer until, yeah. It's unfinished because I can't see the screen any more because my eyes are almost completely shut and the screen is all blurry signifying I need sleep.

I'll probably be horrified at this MH, Shizuru-centered fic when I can actually think.

( Some things are never how they're supposed to be. )

~ish writing this during Psych Sem~ Instead of ranting about it, I wrote a poem. ^___^ Haha, I haven't written a poem since about this time last year. Oh, my wonderful Sonnet X__X

(  If you're thinking about becoming a Psych major... )

Planned list for future fics because I need to clear my head of them.

( for rants, spoilers, and stuff you probably don't care for )

~shrugs~ Oh well. I'm not too broken hearted that I didn't manage to finish D10 like I wanted to. I've been working on it more-or-less everyday so like it's the effort that counts? It's rather sad...only broke the three pages on Word today and nothing has really happened. It'll probably be about 8 pages in total unless there's more dialogue than I'm thinking, which then will be around 11 maybe? And--argh! My ideas keep morphing in my head until I don't know what I want to write anymore. It's not even plot-wise--that's been figured out long, looong ago, but rather like--RARGH! What the heck is wrong with me? I putting like symbols and themes and stuff into fanfiction of all things. T__T orz

This is what always happens to fanfic I write. The ideas keep getting more grandiose and ambitious until they become so large that I don't have the ability to write them anymore and thus I keep planning to write the more once I get better and...and, it sucks. That Bloody Roar fic from 8th grade is still in my mind and it's been warping until like, if I write a novel, it probably be something like that or the elements there will be mixed with my Zelda one from 6th grade. Of course, they barely even resemble a fanfic anymore and the characters are completely different, all the themes, plot, psychological layers, andand...dangit. At this rate this is what's going to happen with the D-series I now want to write! At least, my planned rewrite is going to be really, really crazy. I'm talking simulated reality for Shizuru's plot crazy. Natsuki's is the same basically. So it's totally like that over-quoted Frost poem of diverging paths and stuff except they kinda end at the same point.

Rargh, stupid ideas stop taking over my head. I want to be able to think and concentrate and finish my stupid homework. It would be fine if it was just the D-series, but so are all the other ideas I haven't gotten to write. My dark!AU stemming from around epi 24/25 HiME--if I ever get around to writing it is going to be purely sick. Like, I'm really excited for it. Spoiler for it: we're talking Obsidian Lord/Crystal Princess Natsuki with a Nagi-like Shizuru vs. Otome-like versions of selves. Same with the one shot that's rather similar though that one is more me wanting to write a "Shizuru and Reito team up and take over the world--bwahaha" thing than anything. Yeah, my leftover feelings from the beginning of "zomgosh they would be so awesomely awesome together" hasn't quite diminished. The only thing remotely normal would be my dear OTP crack pairing of Nao/Reito. It's the simplest in content and it would be written so straightforward than I couldn't blotch it with my tendency for making stuff abstract...plus Nao and Reito!! It's like alternate ShizNats and it would be sooo fun. ~loves both characters~ Despite their sheer awesomeness, they hardly get any exploration time and I so want to do that. ~babbles~ Most storyline is figured out andand, there will be a tea party with Shizuru and Reito...

ARGH TWO ESSAYS NEED TO BE FINISHED!!

...not going to be sleeping tonight.

(edit: speaking of other works, there's still In Uniform, my time traveling headache of a Simoun fic, and that pre-anime ShizNats fic...@___@ There's not enough hours in the day to do anything.)

I can't believe how productive I'm being. >.< Tis amazing. Anyway, I was working on D10 and suddenly got this really interesting idea. I think I might play with the concept more once I finish the D-series. Tis a promising idea and I like it enough.

Drabble drabble

Title: Drabble thingy (Can't think of anything XP)
Characters: The Shiz and the Nats, but not really the ShizNats, foshizzle ~couldn't resist~
Rating: PG-ish?
Word Count: 489
Timeline: Pre- MH series, pre-friendship. Probably a week or two after their first meeting in the flower garden.
Warnings: I wrote this really fast so it's probably rather unreadable and stuff.

( Once upon a time when her death glare actually worked... )

So yeah, finally caved in and got a stupid fanfic account like I said I was going to. Figured it at least help me get back on track with just writing in general--forcing me to look back on the stuff I written and remember what exactly I liked about writing.

>.<

http://www.fanfiction.net/~vinfireclaw

There. That's the first and last time I'm ever going to reference it on my journal (although probably not). So far, the only thing I stuffed into it is my Lain fic. Why, because I actually really like that fic and it's really the only place I can think of putting it. So yay! Teddy Bear! I'll probably go back today and throw something else in there, but I probably should be finishing all my other readings for class.

~twiddles thumbs~ Maybe I should throw D1 up there, just to be e-vile. I've been meaning to edit it for a while so...perfect timing!

~laughs nervously~ It's been way, waaay too long and stuff. I've been just holding onto this for months and I really haven't changed anything since November and...like, I just want to finish this monster. Nothing happens much--just filler until D10 which everything is going to be explained. Might put up an omake to clear some stuff up with lady ghost-duude. Neways, my new year's resolution is to finish the D series by the end of January. ^__^;; hope to keep it.

Oh yeah, Happy New Year everyone! ~early at something for once~

( Chapter 9 of Delirium )

Generally don't post stuff on my journal for comm stuff, but I'll make an exception because I feel really bad that I haven't produced anything really productive in the last...half a year. And it's utter poopy stuff because--still mentally exhausted and depressed with CW. But managed to pull self together enough to write something. T__T I don't have time to finish my other prompt because have a gabijillion more parties to go to today Anyway:

Title: And Happiness Visited the Two
Author: vinforspi
Fandom: Mai-HiME
Pairing: Fujino Shizuru/Kuga Natsuki
Rating: PG
Warnings: Outright silliness, plot, what plot? There is also no point to this fic, just a bunch of wiggly lines.
Request: Shizuru Fujino/Natsuki Kuga #31 - Conjoining/Influence

Because saying something like, “No, Shizuru, it wasn’t those ridiculous fuzzy glasses that you were trying to make me wear that broke me, but it was before when you slapped me across the face with the rubber chicken,” was like admitting not just defeat, but that the sun revolved around the Earth and two plus two equaled one.

And so it continues. Wrote this in less than an hour. Spawn of fireclaw not thinking. Idea has been floating around for a while. Didn't turn out as expected, but can't complain. It's silly and meant to be silly. So, yay, silly! ~falls asleep on desk~ Have to stop writing and funky hours. Nothing good comes out of it.

Hmm next one is probably be with SECRET HIMITSU NINJA DESU! So I can move away from the Student Council people for now.

And on a somewhat-but-not-really-random-note I hate writing plays. Pure dialogue pwns me. I got two days to pull something really good out of my dead brain. Best of luckies, fireclaw.

Title: Girl in the Beige School Uniform (part 2 of the In Uniform series.)
Fandom: Mai-HiME
Rating: PG-13 (implied stuff but nothing really)
Word Count: 804
Characters: Shizuru, Natsuki (tis the Shiznats foshizzle!) @__@
Genre: General/Romance
Summary: Reason why one chooses to wear a high school uniform even after she's graduated (in private, of course).
A/N: As a certain awesome person noted, this little vignette thing is totally inspired by a certain scene in Tours #9 which was translated by the much awesome apollyon_0.

( insert witty comment here )

~grins~ I did mention it in an earlier post a month or two ago I was going to write something like this. I didn't think it would turn out how it did, but I'm relatively happy with what I got. Wrote it in an hour and sixteen minutes around 2-3AM-ish last night. Was suddenly struck by this huuge lightening bolt of inspiration. It's actually not the first time I used second person--that would be my Lain fic I'm still working on even though it's been months since I started it. Anyway, here it is. First of a loosely-connected series of vignettes.

Title: Boy in the Black School Uniform (part 1 of the In Uniform series)
Fandom: Mai-HiME
Word Count: 1742
Rating: PG
Characters: Reito, Mai (implied, briefly mentioned Mai/Tate).
Genre: General
Summary: A chance occurrence in a restaurant with a familiar name. Of letting go.
A/N: ~mutters to self~ Even though I can't bring myself to hate anime Tate, Reito is far, far cooler than him. Oh Reito-sama~ you are so incredibly bishie. It would be quite interesting if I could get you to work together with kaichou-sama somehow. Seriously, then taking over the world would be so crazy-easy. Though...maybe both of your harems fangirls would overlap. That would be interesting too, just to see what happens next.

( Oh Reito-sama!~ )

Drabble.

Title: She is...
Fandom: Mai-HiME
Words: 200
Rating: G
Genre: General

( The word dances on the tip of her tongue, she swirls it in her mouth, enjoying the texture of it. )

Guess what I found?

http://www.fanfiction.net/u/316493/

~snickers~ It's my old fanfiction account when I was 13. And...it's both very amusing and very painful. Oh the memories! Dang...that was the me who was playing Narry. ^___^;; And person who couldn't do html right. I tried to link to Alanor even then. Oh the Alanor love! It gets stronger and stronger with age!

And I lied! I so do not have a black belt in karate and so didn't have a blue belt back then. It was more like orange. And I barely even know tai chi! ~ashamed~

Ayashi no Ceres... ~twitch~

And...wow. I used to be really obsessed with silver haired villians. I guess I still am...but woah. ~snorts~

Omgawd! I remember that fic! It was so completely ambitious. I think I had the first 26 something chapters planed out and it was still going. I actually still have plans for it but if I ever write it, it'll be a real novel. Man...so ambitious. And Pathos ish a guy! Wait...by then I was already playing Pathos in Alanor? But he was a she...a she that kept being confused for a he! Her mantel was the maine coon. Fluffy Kitty! But yeah...I can't even read that without cringing or laughing...or both.

~dies~ The first chapter is why I don't write in first person anymore. And dib, Aimi, and firefly all left reviews. Same with Mr. Neo! Actually, I think that's how I met him. Oh the memories!

...oh man. That's so gross. I can't believe that's me.

Got this weird image in my head and I figured I should hurry up and write it so I can go finish my stupid math homework. Typed this up in like 25mins so it makes no sense really and the writing is rather icky.

Title: Untitled
Genre: General
Fandom: Alanor version...um the past one with the Council duudes
Summary: Um...there's Fia. There's Alois. They talk and stuff. Fia is mellow when she talks to Alois. Fia is usually never mellow and thus this entire fic feels really off and OOC for her. This fic doesn't fit in anywhere. You kinda could say that it took place during the whole masquerade thing. I so need to fix this later. It's a good idea but the execution sucked.

( It's not like you to think deep thoughts. )

So...I got over my block of fireclaw! How? Why, music of course! More specifically, one of the Japanese theme songs of Pokemon! Do not doubt the power that ish of Pokemon! It is rabid and spreads like a disease! o_O Whooooo! Andand when you loop it around for hours and hours...insanity! ~giggles like a maniac~ if a pikachu suddenly appears in the fic...you'll know what happened.

So yeah, hah! I finished D7 during break--doesn't matter if it's the last day, I actually posted something up when I said I would and not months weeks a little later! I spent most of today forcing myself to finish it. Which is why I still have a sociology paper to write...no matter!

It's a bit odd for me to post out something the same day I finished it. But, well, I feel it made up for it being nearly two months since an update. 'scuz the likely more-than-usual-stupid-grammatical mistakes kudasai!

( Chapter 7 of Delirium )

Aww, screw it. Just totally screw it. My head is still killing me, can't sleep. Not just that, but I'm really out of it--well, waaay more than usual. This chapter was finished for over three weeks and I just can't look or think about it anymore. Probably has to do with the killer headache and all--but I'm still throwing the fic out because it's been over a month--sorry. And tis official, fireclaw royally sucks at dialogue and characterization. Why am I even fanficing? Urgh, so freakishly out of character. Originally Nao had more stuff ta say but she was starting to channel way too much Fia and that's...not good. ~sighs~ whatever.

( Chapter 6 of Delirium )

Cuz like...I was looking D5 over and figured it was too depressing. And thus this spawn of fireclaw's sillyness appeared. Makes utterly no sense...actually it kinda does, but whatever.

Yeah, weirdest thing happened yesterday night. Like, I got my wisdom teeth pulled out a little more than a week ago. So like, when I felt something stuck in my upper right jaw's gum where the wisdom tooth once sat, I figured it was just food again. Oatmeal has those really annoying brown-ish skin things right? Before I had two of them stuck in my upper gum...took three hours of pull at it to get it out--so annoying. Anyway so I kept pulling at that thing stuck in my upper jaw's gum. Turned out it was a remnant of my tooth...o_O Gum was bleeding any everything. Urgh.

Neways, here lies the parody of D5.

( D5 OMAKE )

To celebrate the return of my freedom (and because I don't feel like doing my math homework), fireclaw spent today finishing up D5. She's not happy with how it turned out. She wanted the chapter to be more dramatic, but she's content with it.

So here it is, the confrontation.

( Chapter 5 of Delirium )