So...three days. Two years and three days. For ten chapters. Whatever, despite better judgment, I'm going to post D10 now. I JUST wrote the last three pages of it and like, they haven't been looked at, not even a little bit. As my dialogue is ungainly and everything, I'm sorry, but it's late, I'm exhausted and I no longer have the energy to care and I know if I don't post it up now, it's going take months before I have the gall to post it up again, and by then I'll despise it even more.

But yeah, for those who care, this is not the end of this fic. I'm going to do rewrite of it. However, this is the last time this fic is going to be mentioned on my el-jay. Despite my apprehension and displeasure of ff.net, I did start posting my stuff there and I guess I'm going to do so as well. I might rant about the revisions more here, but you'll have to got the that cursed site to find the actual chapters.

( Delirium, chapter 10 )

Duude. I can't believe I finished. Yesh, at the expense of my psychology paper and English paper, but I don't care. I finally got this out of my head. It's been a major roadblock for me and I couldn't write D10 at all without first finishing this. This was/is/is supposed to be the B-day fic for jaded088 though it's obviously really, really late. Hahaha. Oh well. My goodness, I don't know if I ever had something that barely break 5 pages cause me so much grief.

This is also the prologue, or rather, almost like my thesis for my future multi-chapter, pre-MH anime fic.

Title: You're not here
Rating: PG
Genre: General
Word Count: 2500+

( Knowing that something was not quite right, these were the moments she felt the most self-conscious: even though she was sitting there almost perfectly still, she seemed to be, at the same time, moving with breakneck speed, hurdling towards a future that seemed to become ever-so beyond her reach and understanding. )

I am a stupid idiot. It was already 2:50AM in the morning, but I got struck by random burst of inspiration I decided to write a drabble. It just kept getting longer until, yeah. It's unfinished because I can't see the screen any more because my eyes are almost completely shut and the screen is all blurry signifying I need sleep.

I'll probably be horrified at this MH, Shizuru-centered fic when I can actually think.

( Some things are never how they're supposed to be. )

I can't believe how productive I'm being. >.< Tis amazing. Anyway, I was working on D10 and suddenly got this really interesting idea. I think I might play with the concept more once I finish the D-series. Tis a promising idea and I like it enough.

Drabble drabble

Title: Drabble thingy (Can't think of anything XP)
Characters: The Shiz and the Nats, but not really the ShizNats, foshizzle ~couldn't resist~
Rating: PG-ish?
Word Count: 489
Timeline: Pre- MH series, pre-friendship. Probably a week or two after their first meeting in the flower garden.
Warnings: I wrote this really fast so it's probably rather unreadable and stuff.

( Once upon a time when her death glare actually worked... )

~laughs nervously~ It's been way, waaay too long and stuff. I've been just holding onto this for months and I really haven't changed anything since November and...like, I just want to finish this monster. Nothing happens much--just filler until D10 which everything is going to be explained. Might put up an omake to clear some stuff up with lady ghost-duude. Neways, my new year's resolution is to finish the D series by the end of January. ^__^;; hope to keep it.

Oh yeah, Happy New Year everyone! ~early at something for once~

( Chapter 9 of Delirium )

Generally don't post stuff on my journal for comm stuff, but I'll make an exception because I feel really bad that I haven't produced anything really productive in the last...half a year. And it's utter poopy stuff because--still mentally exhausted and depressed with CW. But managed to pull self together enough to write something. T__T I don't have time to finish my other prompt because have a gabijillion more parties to go to today Anyway:

Title: And Happiness Visited the Two
Author: vinforspi
Fandom: Mai-HiME
Pairing: Fujino Shizuru/Kuga Natsuki
Rating: PG
Warnings: Outright silliness, plot, what plot? There is also no point to this fic, just a bunch of wiggly lines.
Request: Shizuru Fujino/Natsuki Kuga #31 - Conjoining/Influence

Because saying something like, “No, Shizuru, it wasn’t those ridiculous fuzzy glasses that you were trying to make me wear that broke me, but it was before when you slapped me across the face with the rubber chicken,” was like admitting not just defeat, but that the sun revolved around the Earth and two plus two equaled one.

And so it continues. Wrote this in less than an hour. Spawn of fireclaw not thinking. Idea has been floating around for a while. Didn't turn out as expected, but can't complain. It's silly and meant to be silly. So, yay, silly! ~falls asleep on desk~ Have to stop writing and funky hours. Nothing good comes out of it.

Hmm next one is probably be with SECRET HIMITSU NINJA DESU! So I can move away from the Student Council people for now.

And on a somewhat-but-not-really-random-note I hate writing plays. Pure dialogue pwns me. I got two days to pull something really good out of my dead brain. Best of luckies, fireclaw.

Title: Girl in the Beige School Uniform (part 2 of the In Uniform series.)
Fandom: Mai-HiME
Rating: PG-13 (implied stuff but nothing really)
Word Count: 804
Characters: Shizuru, Natsuki (tis the Shiznats foshizzle!) @__@
Genre: General/Romance
Summary: Reason why one chooses to wear a high school uniform even after she's graduated (in private, of course).
A/N: As a certain awesome person noted, this little vignette thing is totally inspired by a certain scene in Tours #9 which was translated by the much awesome apollyon_0.

( insert witty comment here )

Because I really should get it out and it's been like...half a year. ~sighs~ Besides, there is no way I'm going to be working on it later seeing how I've borrowed firefly's Wii and I have to finish Twilight Princess in like...a week.

Urgh. Restored stupid laptop to factory settings. But, of course, since I was doing it through their Tech Support, completely forgot to back up my old file of D8. The ending got chopped up. Rewrote it in twenty mintues. I might go back (in a couple weeks, maybe) and add stuff then.

This was the most un-fun chapter to write. Which probably caused a month or two of the delays because I didn't want to write it. On the bright side, tis out.

( Chapter 8 of Delirium )

So...I got over my block of fireclaw! How? Why, music of course! More specifically, one of the Japanese theme songs of Pokemon! Do not doubt the power that ish of Pokemon! It is rabid and spreads like a disease! o_O Whooooo! Andand when you loop it around for hours and hours...insanity! ~giggles like a maniac~ if a pikachu suddenly appears in the fic...you'll know what happened.

So yeah, hah! I finished D7 during break--doesn't matter if it's the last day, I actually posted something up when I said I would and not months weeks a little later! I spent most of today forcing myself to finish it. Which is why I still have a sociology paper to write...no matter!

It's a bit odd for me to post out something the same day I finished it. But, well, I feel it made up for it being nearly two months since an update. 'scuz the likely more-than-usual-stupid-grammatical mistakes kudasai!

( Chapter 7 of Delirium )

Aww, screw it. Just totally screw it. My head is still killing me, can't sleep. Not just that, but I'm really out of it--well, waaay more than usual. This chapter was finished for over three weeks and I just can't look or think about it anymore. Probably has to do with the killer headache and all--but I'm still throwing the fic out because it's been over a month--sorry. And tis official, fireclaw royally sucks at dialogue and characterization. Why am I even fanficing? Urgh, so freakishly out of character. Originally Nao had more stuff ta say but she was starting to channel way too much Fia and that's...not good. ~sighs~ whatever.

( Chapter 6 of Delirium )

Cuz like...I was looking D5 over and figured it was too depressing. And thus this spawn of fireclaw's sillyness appeared. Makes utterly no sense...actually it kinda does, but whatever.

Yeah, weirdest thing happened yesterday night. Like, I got my wisdom teeth pulled out a little more than a week ago. So like, when I felt something stuck in my upper right jaw's gum where the wisdom tooth once sat, I figured it was just food again. Oatmeal has those really annoying brown-ish skin things right? Before I had two of them stuck in my upper gum...took three hours of pull at it to get it out--so annoying. Anyway so I kept pulling at that thing stuck in my upper jaw's gum. Turned out it was a remnant of my tooth...o_O Gum was bleeding any everything. Urgh.

Neways, here lies the parody of D5.

( D5 OMAKE )

To celebrate the return of my freedom (and because I don't feel like doing my math homework), fireclaw spent today finishing up D5. She's not happy with how it turned out. She wanted the chapter to be more dramatic, but she's content with it.

So here it is, the confrontation.

( Chapter 5 of Delirium )

...because I'll feel really bad if I didn't post this when I said I would. And hey, I got it up faster than I did before. I'm down to only a month in between chapters! Whoohoo, go fireclaw! >.<

I owe two more places posts and then I'm off to finish my homework. >.< I accomplished much this weekend! Yesterday I posted eight times! Whoohoo! ~much skilled~

And here's D4. I was going to look it over again but I'm sick and tired of reading my own writing that if I read it one more time I'll probably rip my hair out in aggravation. But still, I'm up to D4 now! All that is left is D5 and then...D6 which is going to be such a blast to write and it will be totally awesome I totally doubt anyone has ever thought of using that duude/thing/mabob in a fic...and...I can't wait to write it!!

( Chapter Four of Delirium )

Feel kinda bad, haven't been on lj recently. Just been caught up with start of senior year and everything. Urgh, college aps are pain. Though on the bright side, I finished all my essays and I got them graded/checked. So...whoohoo? Just need to get my recommendation from Gibbons and it's all good. Urk, wonder if it was smart to ask him. I totally failed AP Euro. Kinda contradictory and stuff.

Grammar test tomorrow. O' joyous of joys. More test to fail! Seriously, I think I have about a C or lower in 12AP English. I screwed up on the first essay, did really pitifully on the test and...urgh ~doesn't want to think about it~

And sankyuu Aimi for reminding me. I finished D3 like...three weeks ago and then I forgot I didn't post it. Silly fireclaw. Urgh, and I know, the chapters so far are really disjointed. They're more like separate fics that just so happen to be kind-sorta linear. It gets better, D3 starts the actual storyline thingy.

(  Chapter Three of Delirium )

Sorry I haven't been on a whole lot this past week. Been really occupied with stuff and thus my computer time is quite a bit shortened. Well...man, I'm going to hate working. I'm only volunteering and I get home extremely exhausted. Nine hour work/volunteer day? Four days a week? Crazy. Doing this until school starts. I would say I like it, but I don't really. Well, for one thing it's a serious eye opener for me. Then again, volunteering at a hospital--working in patient/nursing floor in a hospital smack dab in the middle of Detroit is bound to be well...shocking.

I have to say, I never...EVER want to be so old that I can't take care of myself. If I do, someone please kill me. Seriously, I don't see the point of living to the point where your just a burden to everyone else. Just this week, Mon-Thurs, I've seen far more of reality and life than I could care for. Not just the old people, but there are younger-ish people too but duude...duude. The floor I work on smells weird--none of that hospital smell you usually parallel hospitals too--kinda like really overcooked meatballs. And even at home, I still can't rid the smell from my memory. I just help out on the floor, gopher around, bring water to the patients and stuff like that. I feel so bad for some of the people--they've been there for days. And some of them are just well, scream in pain and I just kinda stand there helpless and like put on a stupid smile and "can I help you with anything?" gawd. There are like...five nurses and like twenty four patients. And some of the rooms are still being cleaned/fixed. When those rooms gets filled with patients...dangit, so crazy.

On a less depressing note, the manager of the floor hooked me up with the head of the psych. Which is just plain cool. He said I could job shadow him whenever I liked and DUUDE what an opportunity. Like, he was on the floor I help out at and like, there were a bunch of med students following him. Like sheep, or...tourist. ~has stupid grin on face~ Something like: "if we come this way, we will now see the patient with a head trauma." Andandand when he would write something down on his handy-dandy clipboard they would all crowd around him and ~giggles~ It was silly but well, I would do the same. But it was still silly looking!

And nopers, I have not forgot about my long neglected poor ficcy. It just took me really long to get everything down the way I liked it, I'm still not too sure that I like it. If probably check again, chances are like stuff might change. Drastically! Like suddenly Duran grows six heads and--heh. >.< I don't think I like fanfic-ing that much. I'm so...paranoid about characters that aren't my own. I mean, I hate when people write characters totally OOC to a point you can't recognize them...and then feel hypocritical when I start writing. And durr, I think nearly all my fics in this fandom have been really melodramatic. Dangit, I usually don't write like this! It's just ~gestures wildly~ Blergh, but here it is, D2 which should've of been posted MONTHS ago. Chapter 3 should be out soon...hopefully but now added to the chaos of Mad Mad August is the e-vile-ness of college aps! ~cue ominous music~


( what I guess some duudes have been waiting for, chapter 2 of Delirium )

for me, link to where this challenge(#3) thing is posted

also for me, link to where challenge#2 thing is posted

( what does fireclaw think of the challenge she wrote and just figure out a name for five mins ago )

I wasn't planning on putting this up, but I'll do so for Nounours. haha ~pokes her~

"This" would be my fic-blurb thing for the first challenge to the prompt "window" but...as you will soon see...I couldn't finish it. Mainly because it was like...at 2AM in the morning and fireclaw wasn't thinking and then when looking back at it...didn't want to do anything with it. You can really tell fireclaw gave up at the end.

She wanted to end all that madness!!!!1

Yeah. So...get better soon Nounours! Hopefully it makes you feel a little bit better and stuff.

( fic/blurb thing without a title-thing because...because in it's totally unedited weirdness )

Speaking of which, Chapter 2, I totally despise you. ~stabs~

and I'm totally debating whether or not to dye my hair copper-ish/asian blonde and invest in some hair gel and spray...and pull off a Fia ~laughs~ X__X THAT's how short my hair is right now...~cries~

this fic that you see here. The idea for this one-shot had been bothering me since December. It wasn't until Feburary that I gave up and wrote it in a single day with mad inspiration that hasn't been felt for over a year. And then I spent the next months doing many revisions, editing, and generally angsting over sentence structure. I've looked over this fic so many times and I still have issues with it but I'm so sick and tired of revising it that...blergh. Even still, looking over this, duude is there is such a huge difference between fireclaw's writing inspired and not inspired...

Yesterday the awesome-ness that is of Mr. Neo helped proof read and fix all my mistakes that I still didn't revise and totally made my wordy/confusing sentences awesome with his fabulous writing skills. Much love to Mr. Neo for his patiences and sheer coolness.


Title: Delirium
Fandom: Mai-HiME manga/anime
Pairing: Shizuru/Natsuki? (thus shoujo-ai zomgoodnesss)
Rating: PG-13 (some implied stuff)
Word Count: 3417
Genre: Drama/A bit of angst
Summary: Inspection of the relationship between Shizuru and Natsuki six years after the events in the manga universe. An interesting "what if" scenario.

A/N: Using manga-verse because, even though I despise it, I wanted to do something that most authors haven't done (as of december-ish on fanfiction.net because I haven't been there recently) with the pairing. Due to the fact that the characters (Natsuki especially) are utterly shallow in the manga, I'm stealing the premise of the character's personalities from the anime. If you haven't read the MH manga, don't bother unless you like developing headaches, manga with overdose of fanservice, harem male lead, utter...~rants and spews~

Changes in the manga that coicides with the fic (for anyone that hasn't read the manga):
-All HiMEs have a Key, their most precious person.
-A HiME's Child only appears when their Key touches her Element
-Tate Yuuichi is Mai AND Natsuki's Key
-Tate Yuuichi isalso both Mai AND Natsuki's love interest
-Natsuki refers to Tate as her "slave"
-Natsuki's mother comes back from the "dead" to betray her yet again
-Shizuru plays an very minor role and is virtually nonexistent.

( like, I was going to call this fic 'Happily ever After?' and then figured it sounded too cliche...Byran agreed with me and... yeah )

~blinks~ My muse has gone to the dark side...can't believe fireclaw is going fanficing. Meh T__T ~hopes that she gets ficing out of her system by the time Alanor starts~ highly, highly doubt it tooooooooo

I've fallen quite far. Usually I don't care for pairings. Regard them with mild interest but never enough to...write...ARGH!!! And fluff too! fireclaw writing fluff? OMGWTFBBQ!!! DIE DIE YOU E-VILE MUSE OF MINE!!! ~cough~

Was hoping to finish this before I went off on vacation. Guess not. Chances of fireclaw having internet connection and stuff is doubtful. Even if dad brings his laptop...seriously doubt I'll have a chance to use it for leasure activities. But yeah...fluffy. ~shivers~ And ewww...wrote a...Sakura-chan be really disappointed in fireclaw. fireclaw disappointed in fireclaw. ~hangs head in shame~

Title: Christmas Presents
Fandom: Mai HiME
Rating: PG
Pairing: ...you get three guesses. You don't need the other two.

( Part One )

Yay! Essi finished watching MH today. Good times indeed. Oh yeah, Essi? Remember cousin Amy from a couple years back? Just found out her SN due to some sort of AIM virus that was going around. It was pretty funny, I saw her IM and was like "who else do I know whose name ish Amy?" So liked I clicked the link thinking that it was some joke that she gave me. Go figure. Go say hello or something. (currently infecting her with MH ^__^) Anyway, if anyone sees some Christmas card link, don't click it.

Speaking more of MH, fireclaw finally typed up one of the silly little fic ideas she had in her head. I was laughing while I was writing it. I'll probably add more to it later, but so far it's like this:

Title: Picnic Confessions
Series: Mai-HiME
Rating: G
Pairings: OC/Shizuru Shizuru/Natsuki (if you blink, you'll miss it)

( fic thing#2 )