The practice LSAT still sitting on my desk is such a gloomy thing to look at. It just fills me with so much dread and I really have to take it tomorrow. I got by today and the day before by hiding from my dad and him being more concerned about other things but...urgh. Can only procrastinate so much. ~hits head on desk and keeps it there~

yada nuuuuuuuh

But yeah, spent most of the day on break from my furious Pokemon playing because I just caught up and surpassed my brother. Though I'm totally going for the Umbreon backup which will take forever and my Skarmory egg hasn't hatched yet. And duude! Jolteon doesn't learn Thunderbolt! Wtheck? That's so stupid! Thundershock doesn't get anywhere and I hate gambling which is what using Thunder and Zap Cannon is. And like, I already need 4000 coins to buy my Kingdra Ice beam and now this too? And I'm not even going to try the slots so I'm just going to buy the 500 coins again and again...and I don't have that kind of money seeing how I'm already poor because of stupid Steak! ~eats it again~ Um anyway...

Finally finished watching Blue Drop. Good fun even though you knew it was going to have a horribly tragic ending. I mean, the whole old-school shoujo setting and feeling (which was way cool and loved in muchies) was totally a tip off that it'll be all "their love is too good for the world universe and therefore it will end!!! bwahahaha ~chokesob~"

( spoilers and rants? )

Someone has blundered! And, for once, wasn't me...sorta. Stupid psychology essay has to be rewritten though he's nice enough to allow me and everyone one else in the class (all six of us) rewrite the essay for a better grade. I managed to finish most of it but I really need to finish it tomorrow and turn it in.

Urgh, I hate looking at it and it makes me all angry and sad and stuff.

On a lighter note, my bro came back from his first orchestra trip! ~wipes imaginary tear from eyes~ Oh, they grow up so fast. Hehehe. It's so unfair they got to NYC when we went to Canada of all places. Urgh. Neways, usually I always get him a turtle thing when I come back from my trips. Now being the gift receiver I got...lots of candy and a I <3 NY t-shirt.

...

SUGAR!!! ~laughs maniacally~

Like what the subject thing said. Such a "productive day." Well I finished writing my stupid English paper and it looks alright now. I just hope I don't get angry at it and scrape it at like...12AM Monday with the intentions of rewriting a 10 page monster and turning it in at four. X__X Knowing me, probably will happen.

I didn't get any of D10 done and it's going to take a miracle AND a fireclaw in the right mood to even TRY to finish it tomorrow...or even a paragraph. I wrote self into a hole, it's all dramatic and the setting is so stifling for even me to read it and there's no way...

Anyways, went to Borders. Don't know what possessed me to, but I started reading Twilight. I only got halfway through because I ran into some friends and we just messed around and talked a lot. It's rather sad, the friends that I manage to make this year are mostly seniors and they're graduating...urgh. As for the book so far, well...it's not bad but it's still like...utterly cliche? Heh, it's a high school story AND a vampire thing--the fact that I don't hate it and will probably finish it in my next go is, well, heh. ~shrugs~ Seeing how I'm leaving Thurs and I'm done Monday--well technically with the paper done, I'm done already...might as well go through the other book too.

...now that I think about it, I think I skipped the whole teen period books, well at least the really girly ones. Though um, in the sumemer I did end up reading a couple Gossip Girls of all things. o_O ...one of the girls on the Taiwan trip brought them along and because I was bored and stuff, traded my Yotsubato! for them. It was um...informative? XP

Anyway, today has been an odd-ish day. LOL...ODDISH!!! ~geek~

~slaps cheeks~ Alright! Faito fireclaw! Faito Fighto! One more week left! You need to finish these essays. Alright, tentative schedule of things-to-do this week. For tonight, I need to finish my Psych 280 paper! At this rate, I'm going to be working straight through the night. Don't know if I'm going to make it, but I have to! Second chance! Have to take it!

Tuesday:
Psych 120 final/photovoice project (finish/look over it)
Psych 120 self-assessment essay
Study for Psych 280 final exam
Call Vicki cancel Weds meeting
Eastern, 6-10PM ish? I would totally skip this if I wasn't getting my borrowed bogu which I really need. South U, Espresso Royale (urgh I'm going to collapse during practice because I'm so going to be exhausted by then)

Wednesdays:
Finish English 125 final paper by 4/5, go to office hours Just go to Sweetland.
Finish Psych 120 papers if not done.
Crazy Japanese study
Crazy Psych study

Thursday:
Psych exam 8-10
Last psych 120 paper.
Crazy Japanese study
Work more on English 125 paper?

Friday:
Japanese exam 10:30-12:30
PSYCH 280 PAPER!!!!
English paper finished and done, not going to deal with it on weekend. Turn in Monday.

And in light of this stuff, I want to finish D10 and throw it up before the this Sunday as this stupid fic hits its two year mark and shows how slow of a writer fireclaw is....worked two years on a mere ten chapters and then hate it to pieces and want to make a rewrite. Urgh. On the bright side, I did finish my edit of this week's music drabble thing though, once again, it totally delineate from the song...urgh, totally own tempo... ~slaps cheeks~ Stay awake! Finish essay!

Well that was an interesting way to spend four hours. Like I had five and a half hours of my Psych Seminar today and, oddly enough, it actually went by pretty fast and it was good fun. Like besides the regular hour and a half of class, we had this project thing from 5-9. Our guest speaker this time was this really nice artist lady who does lots of print making. Like if I had to categorize or like use an example of everything we learned about "Creative Work and Social Action," I would probably just be like "ta-da! it's this lady! She embodies all the concepts perfectly!"

So that 5-9 thing was just pure good, good fun. We paired up with people from these students from a master class or something from the School of Social Work and introduced each other. I ended up with the professor/instructor of the class. He seemed really animated and cool. It was my first art class since um, 5th grade. She taught us to make nifty prints and stuff. Like what we were doing is part of this thing called Paper Prayers which is on AIDS awareness and stuff. We were supposed to make a print thingy that symbolizes what that stuff meant to us and how we could do something improve the current standing. We each made 3-4 copies of our print thingies and she took one for an upcoming exhibit or something.

And um, lol, I knew I had mad finger painting skillz! @__@ Well something among the lines. She kept praising how my prints turned out and stuff. ~pleased~

Insanity aside, today was a pretty good day, besides FAILING my Japanese quiz because I was too busy writing papers last night to bother studying. I need to sleep now or else I shall fall over soon.

Oh yesh, before I forget, Merry X-mas to you jaded088 I shall have your stuff done hopefully after class. XP

Yesterday was lots of fun. Went to mall with dib. We just wandered around aimlessly (curse you American Eagle! I will never forgive you for replacing Borders!!!) for the most part though I did buy a DVD I need to watch today for a stupid English paper whose due date was shifted forward from Thursday to Tuesday. ~pouts~ Oh well, my goal is to finish it today. Shouldn't be too hard of an assignment and I always BS my English papers as it is and still do fine. Wish I could say the same for my Psych ones...

Going back to the mall-thing, I was super amused that there are so many new shops that opened and replaced others. Like I don't know half the mall anymore and don't care to. Clothes shopping is boring, especially when they are super designer and expensive. Speaking of which, ~laughs~ we got a Michael Kors shop which amuses me to no end because I just marathon all of Season 4 of Project Runway the other day, well the ones that were out. Urgh.

Neways, we left the mall around 9-ish. And then, suddenly around 9:30 my mom got this strange urge to make dumplings. Naturally I get dragged along but this time dib too! >.< It was really weird calling her and being all like, "So, I know we just saw each other and stuff...but you want to come over and make dumplings with me?" o_O Duude you could hear the raise brows and incredulous tones in voices. But it ended up being lots of good fun. Made probably over a hundred or two. And my um, dumpling-fu has gotten better. ~nods sagely~ I have a yellow belt now! XPXP

Oh yeah, went to Barnes&Nobles, introduced dib to the sweet random awesomeness of Azumanga and Yotsuba. ~proud~

~ish writing this during Psych Sem~ Instead of ranting about it, I wrote a poem. ^___^ Haha, I haven't written a poem since about this time last year. Oh, my wonderful Sonnet X__X

(  If you're thinking about becoming a Psych major... )

Well if finally happened. What's been threatening to happen ever since it started snowing.

fireclaw finally slipped and fell on the ice.

~sighs~ I totally deserved it to. Like the guy in front of me slipped and fell. I helped him up and was all like "are you alright?" Although, secretly, deep down, deeply down--actually it wasn't that deep down anyway--I was happy it wasn't me. Two seconds later, fireclaw turned around and promptly fell.

ORZ

I ish a bad person. And was justly punished. T___T

~nurses wounded pride~

Before it is over, I shall wish everyone a Happy Birthday. ~coughs~

Happy Chinese New Year! May your year of the squeaky be much fun and stuff. Speaking of stuff, I hope everyone has stuffed themselves with moon cakes, the sticky rice things, fish, and lots of other stuff. And have gotten lots and lots of money.

Speaking of more stuffing, went out to eat with Kiki. I feel so FOB-ish with her, more than I am usually neways. XP. All the Chinese restaurants were completely full. We went to three different places and the lines were huuuuge. In the end, we walked back to the first place we stopped by because the line was the smallest there. It was all good fun. Even now, I'm still stuffed with stuff!

~giggles~ It is the return of the rolly polly firey clawy!

So, like, today was the first time since the summer that I picked up my cello. Only did so because I was "enlisted" by my bro's viola teacher--who's this really nice old lady, ish very cute. And well for two hours sight-read stuff. Luckily the music wasn't too hard although I got confused because I suck and the violins kept speeding up. It was fun, can't believe how much I miss playing. And...it's kinda said now. T__T I've lost all finger muscles I gained from cello...which sounds ridiculous but now my pinky finger hurts A LOT. >.< So saaad and pathetic. And today I learned that fireclaw's cello > 15 violins + 5 violas + keyboard. At least, you could hear it really clearly...supposedly.

Besides that party, went to two more. It was crazy. But, on the bright side--No more stupid Asian parties!

Tomorrow...Toronto!

~collapses~

Narry is officially reboooorn! As a younger, just as ambitious, charming self he ish. Or perhaps, the more idealized version I tried to play waay back in 7th grade that I didn't have the ability to pull off. But yeah, I think this is what I needed to stop hating writing. Because CW really did sap all my fondness for it out. And I think Kyasor so far has something Alanor always missed. Direction. Plot. Duudes go places and do stuff. It's far more interactive. Just needs lots more players. But right now, I need to start developing this Narry because he's so fun to play. ^___^

Whoo!

Now to get back to the D series. I really want to finish it before the end of this year. Two more chapters to go...or three, if I want a stupid sappy epilogue. D9 is technically done but I haven't been able to bring myself to fix some of the holes. It's dragged on waay too long and I want to start another project. Or projects...plus add more to my In Uniform series which is more a fun thing that amuses me and I get to write with characters I usually don't get to who are just as interesting and fun as the Shiznats than anything major. And I have a bunch of one-shots too, especially this one for Simoun including loli Shimako Rimone. Rargh. Might end up getting another fanfic.net account because it's getting somewhat difficult to track all the stuff I've written for communities and stuff. Bleh.

And I need to fix that ff7 icon of mine. I lost the first one and made a crude rendition and it didn't work out as well. Aeris' sweatdrop doesn't look like one in this picture. meh

You know, if someone gives you a penny for your thoughts and you reply with your 2 cents worth, you really are getting ripped off.

Today was pretty fun.

From my Chinese History prof I got my take-home midterm. Which is going to totally impede on my enjoyment of the weekend. Finally going to go back home. It's been a while for me. And it's Youmacon this weekend!

Went out with Adrienne and Sarah. It was lots of fun. We ended up buying nifty hats (going to get Sakura-chan one too) and eating dinner at this Greek restaurant which was pretty good. And afterwards we went to Stucci's and Bubble Island in which I got free ice cream and bubble tea because it was my birthday! Whoo!

All and all, 'twas a fun birthday. The best thing is that:

I CAN FINALLY FINISH MY STUPID CREDIT HOURS! Really, not only did I have to get parents to sign a stupid form allowing me to participate in studies, but then all the studies basically required you to be 18. Urgh. Finally can get that out of the way now.

Friday is supposed to be my easiest day. Only have two classes and stuff. Instead it turned out to be quite an...adventure. Something akin to following a treasure map or something...with the map being faulty. If it was a book/tv show/movie it would be a scene in which hilarity ensues but yeah...it really really sucked.

So basically, this week I had three Japanese exams in a row. Yesterday, the last exam was finished, the prof gave everyone a sheet informing that we would be in a different room today for our REC class. I forgot that so I ended up going to our original room. But there was still a bunch of time left so I figured I could get to the other room in another building without being too late. We were supposed to be in Classroom C in AH. So I run to AH and was now about five minutes late. So I start looking all over for the room, entering a bunch of hallways and stuff. AH is connected to three other buildings and they're built like a freaking maze. I ended up running into a guy in my class and we start searching the entire building for Classroom C--which, at this time, felt a lot like searching for the fountain of youth or something equally impossible, implausible to find. I ended up asking a bunch of people for directions and they kept pointing us to Auditorium C--which wasn't it. We were now twenty minutes late for class. If I was alone, I probably would've started crying.

The other guy suddenly realized that there was a Classroom C in MH so we basically ran over to there. And we finally found it! So, when we were catching our breath, we entered the room...and found a blond Caucasian lady that was definitely not Suzuki-sensei (who's a guy). So we took another look at the door to Classroom C. There, taped onto the doorway was a letter saying that the class was in the 2nd floor UGLI (a different building across the Diag). So, feeling completely exhausted, we went there, now about half an hour late to the hour long class. So we get to the computer lab we find NO ONE, NO ONE in the computer room. Feeling despondent and a bit overwhelmed, we wander around the second floor a little, hoping that a classroom might suddenly appear with everyone there. We then found the prof. This was now about 45 minutes into the class.

Turns out we were the only two people that actually ended up in the right place. Not even Suzuki-sensei, our GSI, was there. It really sucked. We were supposed to type a letter to a classmate on a MAC. None of us knew how to use one and thus more frantic wandering (this time via comp) ensues. Finally figure out how to get stuff to write in hiragana and typed up a really lame introduction-ish thing. Then all of us realized that we were now late. My next class is on the other side of the campus. Freaked out again, ran all the way across campus. Was ten minutes late for my other class. So...basically to sum up the day:

T___T

This Sunday afternoon I decided to take a break from my incessant exam studying. So I got off my bed, closed my notebook and textbook, and put on my shiny almost-broken-in $19.95 gray, silver, and gold rollerblades. They're quite cheap compared to the dark purple ones I used to wear in middle school--the ones I stole my mother because she never used them. Despite the almost forty dollar difference, they feel about the same.

Left the building through the side door, carefully walking down two flights of stairs. I jumped the last three of them and pushed the door open, gliding quickly out of the building and onto the pavement. My start off was a little shaky as I moved towards the front of the building--one of my wheels caught on a crack. Fell, scraped the palms of both hands and knee although, thankfully, my pants didn't tear. No bleeding. Picked myself up and started once more.

Went down State St. One thing I love about this campus is how seamlessly campus and town blend together. The quality and state of the sidewalk changes so much. Some of it is extremely smooth while other parts are so broken and cracked it is a pain to roll across, especially when trying to maneuver my way through the crowds. The Sunday atmosphere is so nice: seeing all the many church-goers slowly filter out of the churches scattered around, the families sitting in at many of the sidewalk cafes, and even still backpack wearing students walk past. It was fun weaving through them and speeding past them when I saw tiny openings. While there is the occasional biker, rollerbladers are quite scarce. I was reminded this as I brushed past people, catching their attention. Saw parents of young children kneel down and point me out. Teenagers cheered me on--oddly enough--and the college students barely glance at me before continuing their self-important walk.

Traveled around the Main St. area for over an hour before I made my way back into campus. Around the Diag, there were a couple people, mostly sitting under trees, studying or taking a nap. Seeing how it's the weekend, the crowded areas, specially around Dennison were nearly desolate. I had lots of fun spinning around streetlights and blading as fast as I could in that area. Afterwards, traveled to the Law Quad and went through that. Forgot that the road there wasn't smooth or pavement. Nearly tripped over the stones that lined the path.

Finally went back. As I sat on a concrete bench near the junction of Thompson and Packyard, I relaxed and rested my feet. Today's weather was perfect and there was a strong breeze out. So strong that it had almost pushed me off course when I was weaving around Main. Now, it just whipped my already wind-swept, messy hair. Looked up and saw a large tree barely touched by a myriad of yellow, orange, and red that, in a couple more weeks, would overtake it. But now, in the beginning days of fall, was still predominately green. Through those leaves swaying in the breeze, I saw the light blue sky that was scrapped by near-invisible cirrus clouds. I sat there for a while and then took a deep breath. Closed my eyes, and enjoyed the feeling for a while and thought to myself:

Yeah. I definitely ended up making the right choice.

I could keep falling in love with this campus.


(I'm an absolute idiot for joining a bunch of rpgs right before exams. Curses. Stupid me for giving into stupid impulses.)

I met this person today at the AIV large group. Well, I've seen her around and always thought I would be able to get along with her well. But yeah, today finally talked to her. Apparently, we look alike because Grace from OCC got us mixed up. We actually dressed pretty much the same too.

But yeah, she's awesome. It's kinda scary how much we are similar in interests. And we follow like the same train of thought. She is/was a psych major and loves writing and acting. And...I finally found a good person to throw my plays at. She said she actually got goosebumps from my monologue and can give me tips on how it would end up if the scene was acted and how to change it. Ideas are awesome!

So like, whoo! I'm finally meeting people outside of my usual group besides roommate friends.

Oh yeah, on Wednesday, went to this Japanese cafe which a friend from Jap class works at. It's very Japanese, owned by this really cuute (in a teddy bear kind've way) chef guy. I feel slightly bad for him, he gets bullied so much. Actually turned red in embarrassment when Kiki gave him her cookie. Probably go there with parents tomorrow. They serve really good (and expensive) Japanese tea.

And I'm finally getting the hang of dramas!

I got so focused on my revision for my two duude scene that I ended up leaving for my Jap lecture late-ish. On the way there, like, in front of the building, I saw this old Chinese duude wearing this really nice business suit. He looked like one of those crazy martial artists--white mustache and everything with like crazy wisdom written on his forehead in bright neon lights. Like I got the feeling that he was really wise and all-knowing. I passed him as I crossed the streets. Made eye-contact. He said, in a very heavy accent:

Wise old Chinese man: Hurry up.
firecaw: ~nods, acknowledging him, and walks away~

I didn't think I was that late. Gave myself ten minutes to walk there. I got this really nice watch from Taiwan so I wear it everyday, but this afternoon I forgot it so I wasn't sure of the time. Sure enough, I get to class just as Sensei is passing out the quiz.

Needless to say, I was suitably weirded out. I stayed up really late finishing the first season of Kaleido Star (omgosh Layla! ~fangirls~) and had to wake up early for a class. Was really tired. Now, the whole thing feels so dreamlike.

Hehe. It sounds like a really bad beginning of a manga or something. It would make a cool intro to a story. Hmm...maybe I should do something with it. ^__^

Just got the FictionJunction Yuuka Circus CD. It is made of pure awesomeness. ~sighs happily~ I'm such a Yuki Kajiura fangirl.

I like it better than Destination.

Got monologue back from. Prof didn't really say much about it. Mainly said that if I was going to work in a surreal setting, I should give it more description and stuff, lay out the ground work. That's the kind of stuff you wouldn't have issues with in writing fiction. RARGH. I don't like drama format. Tis limiting.

I'm scared when it comes my turn for the two-duude drama. Even though this one is waaay safer that my monologue. It's just...duudes are going to READ IT OUT LOUD! And that is embarrassing. >.<

But yeah. FictionJunction Yuuka is sheer love. Whoo. It makes me happy and inspired. Expect I have to study like crazy for stupid Psych "midterm."

Last week in Chu Lu! Next week ish Japaaaan! Whooo! We're going to Osaka!

These last two weeks have been...interesting to say at least. Since my middle school kids (originally was teaching the oldest class) have to go back to school, we ended up dividing the elementry school students into five classes. As we originally had ten teachers and there were about 38 students, give or take...yeah. Except I ended getting the lowest (as in the stupid kids) and teaching them myself. So I had about seven/eight kids (some randomly appear and some get thrown into my class). They are really cute and make me laugh. There is this kid, Dong, who is just a handful. But he's so cute. He keeps on pestering me to "swordfight" with him (using waterbottles and the likes). That kid does not run out of energy. But it's really tiring. I could never be an elementry school teacher. Have a newfound respect for them, seeing how they have to control twenty-some of those little monsters.

I've gotten sorta used to my hair. It's just...I look kinda funky. If I wear my new F.O.B.-y clothes I beat people won't recognize me. X___X Bangs! Short bangs!

Oh yeah, for some reason, I got my picture taken in Taitung. The whole "pretty pretty" senior pictures kind. Young Lao Shi made me. X___X Like dress up, make up, and the likes. It was the first time that I got my nails painted (ZOMGosh, they're PINK! PINK!!! WITH SPARKLES!~dies~ and still on my nails), hair done, had make up on me, lipstick, hair gel.0..basically everything. Oh yeah...my eyebrows got plucked too! or whatever you call it. X___X And and out of the four outfits we had to wear, two had to be dresses. Obviously went unprepared and like...eh. One of my dresses was PINK!!! And my hair was done all funky andand...TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON! ~waves arms frantically~ But most of them turned out nicely. I think I stick one up as an icon or something.

Finished Natsuki half of D8. It's a lot longer than I expected it to be and stills needs insane amount of work. But it's at least written. Shizuru and Kiyohime part next. And that part is really, really long. D8 is probably going to be the longest chapter so far. Probably 20+ pages on Word. This makes me worried. At this rate, D9 will probably be broken into two halves.

I hate this keyboard. Half the words I type up don't show up and I have to go over it again.

I'm going to need two hours on the internet. Two hours that I don't have to catch up.

But in the bright side, I got into that Creative Writing class I wanted to get into! SCORE!!

Convo we had while watching Lucky Star:

Sakura: Why are their conversations exactly like the ones we have?
fireclaw: You know, I never thought about it that way...but I knew it seemed familiar.
Kate: Sarah is so Miyuki.

That was after watching the first episode. After the third both of them swore someone had been listening into our conversations. Heh.

Good times.