fireclaw (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} vinforspi) wrote,@ 2008-05-04 00:27:00 |
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argh
I'm so incredibly pissed off right now. I am so incredibly close to my breaking point that I'm probably going to break tomorrow or something. I have had to deal with far more shit than I can take and I'm just done. Done with everything.
Mood nowadays is absolutely fragile and it doesn't much to get me angry anymore and it's taking longer and longer for me to calm down. I am usually angry now because I have to deal with far more than I can take. It's like...I can't have any, ANY peace to myself for even an hour. If I try to escape, it just means more for me to deal with when I return back.
Look, I've been taking care of myself since middle school. I did absolutely everything on my own and the only time you guys ever stepped it was to cut my ties to people and whatever I was passionate about. I did everything by myself. Everything attributed to me, all my grades are mine and I never, ever got help from you. I solved and dealt with my problems without you and you only ever did increase my burden.
You are too late. You are more than seven years too late if you think you can bend me to your will. Because all I'm going to do is break now. I've been doing just fine and I don't need your stupid "help" and, most of all...I don't need your stupid burdens pushed onto me either or you projecting yourself onto me. This entire week has just been one thing after another and I'm just so tired and angry and stressed and just so ready to cut my ties to everything. Aren't you proud? I'm shaping up to be like you guys anyway. I think I have the best role models ever.
I'm just done and so ready to go insane.
I'm so incredibly pissed off right now. I am so incredibly close to my breaking point that I'm probably going to break tomorrow or something. I have had to deal with far more shit than I can take and I'm just done. Done with everything.
Mood nowadays is absolutely fragile and it doesn't much to get me angry anymore and it's taking longer and longer for me to calm down. I am usually angry now because I have to deal with far more than I can take. It's like...I can't have any, ANY peace to myself for even an hour. If I try to escape, it just means more for me to deal with when I return back.
Look, I've been taking care of myself since middle school. I did absolutely everything on my own and the only time you guys ever stepped it was to cut my ties to people and whatever I was passionate about. I did everything by myself. Everything attributed to me, all my grades are mine and I never, ever got help from you. I solved and dealt with my problems without you and you only ever did increase my burden.
You are too late. You are more than seven years too late if you think you can bend me to your will. Because all I'm going to do is break now. I've been doing just fine and I don't need your stupid "help" and, most of all...I don't need your stupid burdens pushed onto me either or you projecting yourself onto me. This entire week has just been one thing after another and I'm just so tired and angry and stressed and just so ready to cut my ties to everything. Aren't you proud? I'm shaping up to be like you guys anyway. I think I have the best role models ever.
I'm just done and so ready to go insane.
