~shrugs~ Oh well. I'm not too broken hearted that I didn't manage to finish D10 like I wanted to. I've been working on it more-or-less everyday so like it's the effort that counts? It's rather sad...only broke the three pages on Word today and nothing has really happened. It'll probably be about 8 pages in total unless there's more dialogue than I'm thinking, which then will be around 11 maybe? And--argh! My ideas keep morphing in my head until I don't know what I want to write anymore. It's not even plot-wise--that's been figured out long, looong ago, but rather like--RARGH! What the heck is wrong with me? I putting like symbols and themes and stuff into fanfiction of all things. T__T orz

This is what always happens to fanfic I write. The ideas keep getting more grandiose and ambitious until they become so large that I don't have the ability to write them anymore and thus I keep planning to write the more once I get better and...and, it sucks. That Bloody Roar fic from 8th grade is still in my mind and it's been warping until like, if I write a novel, it probably be something like that or the elements there will be mixed with my Zelda one from 6th grade. Of course, they barely even resemble a fanfic anymore and the characters are completely different, all the themes, plot, psychological layers, andand...dangit. At this rate this is what's going to happen with the D-series I now want to write! At least, my planned rewrite is going to be really, really crazy. I'm talking simulated reality for Shizuru's plot crazy. Natsuki's is the same basically. So it's totally like that over-quoted Frost poem of diverging paths and stuff except they kinda end at the same point.

Rargh, stupid ideas stop taking over my head. I want to be able to think and concentrate and finish my stupid homework. It would be fine if it was just the D-series, but so are all the other ideas I haven't gotten to write. My dark!AU stemming from around epi 24/25 HiME--if I ever get around to writing it is going to be purely sick. Like, I'm really excited for it. Spoiler for it: we're talking Obsidian Lord/Crystal Princess Natsuki with a Nagi-like Shizuru vs. Otome-like versions of selves. Same with the one shot that's rather similar though that one is more me wanting to write a "Shizuru and Reito team up and take over the world--bwahaha" thing than anything. Yeah, my leftover feelings from the beginning of "zomgosh they would be so awesomely awesome together" hasn't quite diminished. The only thing remotely normal would be my dear OTP crack pairing of Nao/Reito. It's the simplest in content and it would be written so straightforward than I couldn't blotch it with my tendency for making stuff abstract...plus Nao and Reito!! It's like alternate ShizNats and it would be sooo fun. ~loves both characters~ Despite their sheer awesomeness, they hardly get any exploration time and I so want to do that. ~babbles~ Most storyline is figured out andand, there will be a tea party with Shizuru and Reito...

ARGH TWO ESSAYS NEED TO BE FINISHED!!

...not going to be sleeping tonight.

(edit: speaking of other works, there's still In Uniform, my time traveling headache of a Simoun fic, and that pre-anime ShizNats fic...@___@ There's not enough hours in the day to do anything.)